Hey Dad! I bet the weather up there is much nicer than it is down here. I was sure you had struck a deal with God over the nice weather, as since you left us we have had wall to wall sunshine. Alas, it is no more!
I'm off to see Aunty J tonight with the MR and the boys and Sunday Uncle J, and the gang are coming down. It's funny how when you were alive I relied on you to be the contact with the rest of the family and tell me anything that was going on. I didn't realise until you were in ITU just how much I took it for granted, and most of the time didn't realise I was doing it. So now me and the MR have decided to make the effort to stay in touch with the family more. They are struggling to cope with you leaving just as much as me, so we all need each other right?
I managed three days in work this week but yesterday the dreaded pains returned and so today I am working from home. There is lots of great stuff coming up in the business and it helps but it doesn't stop the pain of losing you. Last night I balled my eyes out for about 5 minutes, I had the MR there with me, but sometimes this agonising stabbing pain just overwhelms me and I have to just let it out. I know you had run your race and I am so proud that you graduated so soon, but I miss you so much. I want to pick up the phone and find you answering it, I'm still waiting to hear that stupid car engine as you make you way up the street. Everything around me tells me your gone and yet I still want you to pop up somewhere and tell me this was all a dreadful mistake.
Life will never be the same again, not without you! but I am trying to appreciate what I have more and I will do my best, once this season is over, to live each day to the full. People say that you never get over losing a loved one, you just learn to live with the loss. Well I am living Dad, living and breathing! I am able to laugh and cry, smile and frown, be happy and sad but most of all I'm glad to have known you this long x
Thursday, 31 March 2011
Wednesday, 30 March 2011
Tuesday, 29 March 2011
Tuesday's for triumphs
Morning Dad,
I've been reading all about what it's like up there and it sounds amazing! I know that you are having THE best time! Say Hi to the family for me.
I miss you so much, my heart has truly broken in two. I think the MR has the other half so I know that bit is safe for now. You've left such a massive gap in sooooooo many peoples lives, seriously! The amount of people who are missing you is really overwhelming. One person said to me that you had "left an amazing legacy" and that is soooo true!
Well, you'll be glad to hear that I am back in work and that the business is going to be just fine, thanks to you and your investment. We are really going to go for it now, get after those customers and draw them in. I lost my best sales rep the day you went home, so now I better get my behind in gear and do the selling.
I'm off now to make a sweet hamper for a friend of a friend who is raising money for charity. You brought me up to be a generous person and put others before myself, and looking at your personal affairs after you were gone, you really were generous with what you had. All your furniture has gone to good homes and the family all have treasured possessions from what you owned. I miss you Dad, but I'm a fighter and I will make you proud, although I already know you were very proud.
This is for you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I've been reading all about what it's like up there and it sounds amazing! I know that you are having THE best time! Say Hi to the family for me.
I miss you so much, my heart has truly broken in two. I think the MR has the other half so I know that bit is safe for now. You've left such a massive gap in sooooooo many peoples lives, seriously! The amount of people who are missing you is really overwhelming. One person said to me that you had "left an amazing legacy" and that is soooo true!
Well, you'll be glad to hear that I am back in work and that the business is going to be just fine, thanks to you and your investment. We are really going to go for it now, get after those customers and draw them in. I lost my best sales rep the day you went home, so now I better get my behind in gear and do the selling.
I'm off now to make a sweet hamper for a friend of a friend who is raising money for charity. You brought me up to be a generous person and put others before myself, and looking at your personal affairs after you were gone, you really were generous with what you had. All your furniture has gone to good homes and the family all have treasured possessions from what you owned. I miss you Dad, but I'm a fighter and I will make you proud, although I already know you were very proud.
This is for you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Monday, 28 March 2011
Monday's for memories
Dear Dad,
I can hardly believe that already you have been away from us for two weeks, where does time go? We've finally been to Ikea to get the piece for the wardrobe, so now my broken rail of clothes is broken no more. While there I picked up a new toilet seat and it took me back to a couple of years ago when you changed my toilet seat over to the new silver shiny one. When you were in the middle of tightening up the bolts, you slipped across the seat via your chest and it wasn't until months later we found out that you had broken your ribs!! You knew something was wrong from the time you had done it but it wasn't until the x ray showed a repaired fracture that we found out.
Anyway I'm sure you'll be glad to know that we now have a nice new wooden seat. Why the silver one corroded so badly no one will ever know. I know the MR's wind etc is not the best smell I have ever come across but I didn't think it was enough to corrode a piece of wood!!!
Everywhere I am, and everything I do brings back memories of you. It still hasn't sunk in that you gone, although I think the MR is realising it, as now the DIY has to be done by him.
Enjoy it up there and don't worry about me, I'll be just fine xx
I can hardly believe that already you have been away from us for two weeks, where does time go? We've finally been to Ikea to get the piece for the wardrobe, so now my broken rail of clothes is broken no more. While there I picked up a new toilet seat and it took me back to a couple of years ago when you changed my toilet seat over to the new silver shiny one. When you were in the middle of tightening up the bolts, you slipped across the seat via your chest and it wasn't until months later we found out that you had broken your ribs!! You knew something was wrong from the time you had done it but it wasn't until the x ray showed a repaired fracture that we found out.
Anyway I'm sure you'll be glad to know that we now have a nice new wooden seat. Why the silver one corroded so badly no one will ever know. I know the MR's wind etc is not the best smell I have ever come across but I didn't think it was enough to corrode a piece of wood!!!
Everywhere I am, and everything I do brings back memories of you. It still hasn't sunk in that you gone, although I think the MR is realising it, as now the DIY has to be done by him.
Enjoy it up there and don't worry about me, I'll be just fine xx
Friday, 25 March 2011
Daddy's girl
This daddy's girl faced the harsh reality of having to learn to stand on her feet when her dad passed away in March 2011. As a tribute to all that my dad taught me to be, I am going to talk openly about grieving and the emotions that come with having now to live without, the worlds best dad!
Have a great time in heaven Dad! You may not be on planet earth anymore but you'll never leave my heart x
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