I know it's a strange one Dad, but it really hit home to me that just as in life we make things valid, we also need to give validity to someone dying. You know over and over again I tell people how you lived your life everyday for what you believed in and as a result you got called home early.
Remember all those years you told me you would die in your 80's? When you first passed away, I felt cheated of about twenty years with you, but I then began to realise that you had indeed run your race and you had done it so quickly that you did in fact gain twenty years in eternity.
I talk about you every day, I suppose it's away of keeping you here as well as me declaring to the world how proud I am to have had a Dad like you. I can't help but feel fatherless right now; as a Daddy's girl that's just normal right? The book I am reading is really helping me to realise that it's OK to be doing what I am doing and that quite surprisingly I am a textbook case for dealing with grief. How odd is that? I have never known us to be textbook lol!
I will tell your story for as long as I need to, to whoever I need to and not worry about telling it again and again. I'm a work in progress and just like you did, I'm doing this "my way" ;0)
love you always xxx
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