Hey Dad, this is my final post as I feel I have said everything that I needed to get out of my system. I feel this weekend that I turned a corner and so I thought I would use this post to mention sight.
Firstly I knew that you had very strong feelings over organ donation and I expressed those feelings to the intensive care staff and unfortunately the blood infection had affected your organs and so the only thing that could be used were your corneas. Amazingly thanks to your wonderful gift a man in Yorkshire has gone from being blind to being able to see. How amazing is that!!! I feel so thrilled with that.
The other aspect of sight is from my personal point of view. I have a different outlook on life now that you are gone. I have changed I feel it. I am no longer afraid to say how I feel and to do what is best for me and my family. You cannot go through an experience like this without it changing you.
And so I have come to the end of this phase of grief. I have had 5 weeks of despair and anger and now I feel like my vision is becoming clearer and my head is coming out of the clouds. No doubt I will visit lots of negative emotions every day but I feel like everything I felt trapped in has been emptied out and I am ready to move forward in my life. I love you and will never forget you. every moment of the day you are in my thoughts but I have to make the most of this precious gift of life that you played your part in giving me.
So onward and upwards dear dad, onwards and upwards. Til we meet again, keep a place for me xxx
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